I've been sitting on this post for a while. It's something that is near and dear to my heart, but it's also something that's a challenge for me to articulate. Sacrifice, seasons, hope. Three things that Tyler and I feel knee deep in.
Tyler and I have been working towards paying off our student loans since we got married. We knew we would have to make certain sacrifices to make changes we really wanted to see. We have been determined to be completely debt free and never take on debt again. We've cracked a lot of jokes about paying off a house without actually owning one, haha. ;) In our journey of loan payoff we have learned persistence, determination, sacrifice, and grit.
We've had people laugh at us when we told them we didn't have smart phones. We've had people think we were weird because we chose to live small. We feel weird a lot, haha. But we've learned to do hard things and we've learned not to quit.
I have felt many of these things within my business journey. I have felt weird when sharing my dreams and small business. I have had to hold tight to planting seeds in my business that I know will take time to take root. Owning a small business is beautiful, but it also takes sacrifice.
I find so much grace when it comes to seasons. Our current season is full of sacrifice. It's hard sometimes. It's hard a lot of the time. We work a lot. A lot. Tyler reminds me often that it's not forever and he's right. Sometimes I feel like this season has been long and weary. Sometimes I feel like this is our season in the desert. And while sometimes I desperately wish we could bypass this season, I know that Jesus has taught us so much. We have learned of our ever increasing need of Him. Without this season we may have gone through life with the mind set that our own strength had brought us to each new venture. But we know without a doubt that Jesus has lead us, guided us, and provided for us. We have seen Him pour out grace, blessing and provision.
With all the sacrifice and with the grace of each season comes buckets of hope. We have hope that we will get to the next season. We trust in Jesus that after this season of work there will be a season of rest. We trust in Jesus that after this season of sacrifice that there will be a season of abundance.
One of my favorite verses ever is Isaiah 43:18-19.
Forget the former things;
do not dwell on the past.
See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness
and streams in the wasteland.
I want to plaster this verse everywhere... this verse tells me that Jesus is doing something complete new in me, in our family, and in this business journey. This verse tells me that Jesus is creating something beautiful. This verse fills me with hope. Jesus is doing something new in me, in my marriage, in the business, and everything else.
In business there will be sacrifice, there will be seasons, and there will be buckets of hope. Hope and faith that Jesus is doing something beautiful in our lives. Hope and faith that Jesus is creating a business for His kingdom. Trust and hope that we are His vessels to do it. xoxo. Samantha